Why do I worry? Right now I am house/dog sitting for the family I'm going to nanny for, and somehow every little thing makes me anxious. I couldn't even enjoy a night with friends because I was worrying about all the things that could go wrong at the house and with the dog. I've been worrying about everything from using too much of their butter to not petting the dog enough. In the back of my mind, I keep thinking "What if they have a camera and think I'm a crazy person?"
Maybe I thought that moving to Austin where I didn't know anyone would help with feeling pressure. It did - until I met people and got a job. And just this week I heard stories from two guys who had gotten fired from their jobs for simple mistakes. I mean I know I will make mistakes...... I know I haven't tried my hardest at my job this week. And even if I did try my hardest I would still fall short of being the perfect dog sitter.
So God says to not worry about anything, but what if I am to blame? How do I trust God and not worry? How do I approach life responsibly but not controllingly. I want to learn to trust God and that he will work in my weakness. Somehow I keep feeling guilty for being so weak. "Good Christians don't struggle this much with laziness and self-control." but is that true? Will I ever get to the point that I won't struggle with selfishness?
